5 THINGS

I begin to wonder, am I so used to people gone in my life, or, I just don't care anymore?

Best decision made this year was to end the friendship for good because it was going nowhere.

Oh wells, so 8 more months left in 2015 and I do have like a few things to... stick to.

1. Road to being fitter than ever.

Last december, I begin to stick to a 4 weeks exercise regime (and a little bit of dieting) which helped me to shed off 2kg. And happiness blinded myself and I didn't stick to the regime but hey, I'm back on track again.

And I'm going to craft my body to what I want, and yes I am going to get there no matter what. Efforts in = results out. Reap what I sow.

I definitely cannot wait to get my 1st ever triangl swimwear and head off to beach vacation soon! I miss Bali, to be honest.

Sun tanning, bikini, watermelon, floppy hats, sunscreens. I can't wait for a real beach vacation somewhere. Phuket, Boracay, Maldives or Bali (again) soon.

2. Save for the rainy days.

Savings would probably be last on my list but for the sake of my dream vintage garden wedding, dream home, vacations, it's time to start saving. Especially after I turn 21. (In 4.5 months time)

3. Do things that make me happy and simply fuck the rest.

Happiness above all. Keep it mind, and when you're happy, everything becomes better instantly.

This september, I turn 21.

List of things to anticipate:

- *hopefully* Spend 2nd september with TK and have dinner with my parents and him too.

- Chanel Interlocking C earrings.

- Birthday trip to Tokyo

- Tokyo disneyland and Tokyo disneysea

- Instax printer (maybe buying it in Tokyo)

But before the trip, I hope to get another camera (either a sony nex or samsung nx 3000)

Happiness above all.

4. Always be true to myself.

Whatever happens, stay true to yourself. Do things that you can answer to yourself without guilt. Do things that you don't have to say sorry for. Do things that makes you happy, most importantly.

5. Learn something new.

Learn till you die.

I think if I lay my hands on a new camera this year, I would totally play with it and learn more about iso, aperture, exposure, and take more videos, (might consider doing vlogs).

If I have enough money for a macbook, of course sure enough I would start doing videos and video editting, and photo edits.

Would also try to do photoshoot, taking it as an career try-out. As professional photographer. *ding dong* I might excel in this area.

Maybe also interior designer by starting with my own room. Since I'm not moving out anytime soon, should just remake my room to more... tumblr-ish. Fairy lights, polaroids hanging on strings, white bed sheets, furry cloth (to take flat lays).

LIVE live to the fullest,

LAUGH as much as you breathe

LOVE with all your heart.

To be honest, I can't wait to step into the next phase of life with TK, because we have been there for each other for almost 4 years but only officially together for 1 year 2 months. I guess it wasn't about how long we have been together, but it was all the small little things that matters. We probably quarrelled / argued with each other more than any couples out there.

What I love about him is that he might be angry, but all it takes is a sorry and a hug to applease him, and then calmly tell him my point. And that he never gives up on me. I am always insecure 99% of the time and I tell him that he deserve better and everything but he thinks that better isn't any use when the girl is not me.

Love over anything else. Chemistry between us, over "better girl".

We made it so far, looks like it's a ride that isn't gonna end until one of us stops breathing.

I'll learn to give in more (if it's reasonable) and of course, *try* to be less insecure.

I can do it, as long as I put my heart to it.

Here's to making my second third of 2015 better.

XOXO.