I still cannot believe that we are together officially for 1 year and 2 weeks soon. 

Before being together, I have always hoped that we would be together. But after being together, there are times where I wished we were nothing more but just friends. And yes, this 1 year is not easy... We quarrelled ALOT. Like really, almost every week. But most importantly was, we got through the quarrels, and we made up, and move on. 

Most of the times, I'm the one who is not sensitive enough, or that I don't know how to please people. I only know how to be myself (which means I'm loud in my voice, emotionally heightened most of the time, not those gentle type of girls) 

And I was never the type of girl you idealized. 

I am not tall (okay lah, 1.62m passable) 

I am not skinny to bones (I have thick and heavy bones to begin with, i have boobs, i have ass, and i have fats) 

I am not pretty (but at least I look okay without make up) 

I am not sporty (but i try my best to workout and run) 

I am not tan (enough) 

I am not soft spoken (i am outspoken, and loud) 

I am lazy (not hardworking) 

But..

I am there for you whenever you needed someone. 

I am there for you both bad and good times.

I am sweet to you even if we were just friends.

And you said it yourself, I have that kind of special ability that capture your heart(touch your heart) and you wished I knew how special I was. 

I never believed it. But I do now. Because no matter how much I try to push you away, you still stick to me, holding me (because you promise you'll never let me fall), and you always gives in to me despite your huge ass ego because you want me to win, you want me to be happy, because my happiness over yours. 

And I am sorry I never knew how much I meant to you because I always thought, i'm not your ideal type of girl, i should just let you go, (to find someone that suits you) 

I need to learn, how to compromise, how to meet in the middle, how to not be a bitchy girlf. I'll learn. But I'll still grumble and rant and get angry at you, but end of the day, I still love you. 

1st month / iLights festival

2nd month / Ice skating (with a butt bruise) 

3rd month / Graduating together

4th month / Asian civiliization museum and free ndp parade (fighter jet show, and ice cream spills)

5th month / Alive museum, and late night yoshinoya.

6th month & my birthday / Ippudo

7th month / sunday @ jem & a walk amongst the tombstone (i think?)

8th month / town

9th month / homecook pasta

10th month / Jem & Imm

11th month / Ajisen @ Clementi mall

(Reminiscing the good o times)